Happy Happy Happy!

Somebody likes me!!! Hoorah! Just goes to show that I am not completely untouchable.
Thanksgiving is going to be great! I have NO worries, except that my brain keeps looking for something to fret about. I can't wait for my family to come home, I love them so much!
P.S. Harry Potter was amazing and I get to go see it again (hint, Hint!) If anyone has any clues as to where they got that amazing funnel neck jacket for Hermione in the scene after the wedding, please PLEASE, contact me!

FreeFall

On that day I'll try
To be free, free as the birds
That fly
I will break from the path I
was on,
And instead make a new path, where there
Are none,
This freefall is making me sick
I want to kick,
Kick away from the love I once had,
Oh, all this hate is driving me
Mad!
And why couldn't someone love me,
And care for me, and help me
Just because it's the nice thing to do,
I'm sick of frowning
And sick of Ti
Maybe someday you'll see me fly

Anything Goes!!

The musical at my school this year is "Anything Goes". Ya know, by Cole Porter. It's is possibly the funniest musical I've EVER been in! And I've been in quite a few. I play Bonnie, aka: Shameless Hussy, No-boundaries Bonnie, flirt and G.S. for General slut. I do a lot of the dancing in the play. I actually got to choreograph 2 of the songs that have 6 other dancers in them! So if anyone is actually reading this: Come to the North Crawford Playhouse Production of Anything Goes. November 5, 6, 7, 11, 12, 13.
Our high school is widely renowned for it's way better than average production. We are better than some college productions! Shhhh!!! Just don't tell them that! Well anyway, we haven't sold a whole lot of tickets yet and I was just trying to broadcast a little bit! :)

Seeds Among Thorns

My pastor is great. I'm just going to put that out there. He can bring Jesus into a room and then fill you so full of the need to invite more people to meet Christ that you want to run out of the church screaming at the top of your lungs,"Gos saved me and he wants to save you too!" Like a baptist evangelist. (For the record I did not do this I don't think that would actually make anyone come to church) Just so you know, he's great.
This summer I went on a Mission Trip (booyah!) to Hopkinsville, Kentucky and I saw a miracle. I know that I saw 70 teenagers and 15-20 adults realize exactly what having a relationship with Christ is. Myself included. I cried, a lot, and I prayed the hardest I've ever prayed in my life and it felt wonderful to know that I had accepted Christ into my life and that I needed to get everyone into the kingdom of heaven as fast as I could. I will always remember it.
The problem is, that two months later I still love Jesus and I still have a pretty solid faith, I don't have that wonderful feeling anymore, I don't have any ambition to invite kids my own age to church. My pastor once said that "Being a Christian is not for pansies". Well, I guess I've become a pansy. Also, Matthew 13 talks about a farmer scattering seed. "A farmer went out to plant some seeds. As he scattered them across his field, some seeds fell on the footpath and the birds quickly ate them up. Other seeds fell on shallow soil with underlying rock. The seeds sprouted, but the sun scorched them because the had shallow roots. They died. Other seeds fell among thorns that grew and choked the young plants. Still other seeds fell on fertile soil and they produced a crop that was 30, 60, 100 times as much as had been planted." "The seed that fell on the footpath represents those who hear the message but do not understand it. Then the evil comes and snatches away the seed that was planted in their hearts. The seed on the rocky soil represents those who hear the message and immediately receive it with joy. But they don't have deep roots, they do not last long. They fall as soon as they have problems or are persecuted for believing God's word. The seed that fell among the thorns are those who hear God's word, but all too quickly the message is crowded out by the worries of life and the lure of wealth, so no fruit is produced. The seed that fell on good soil represents those who truly hear and understand God's word and produce a harvest 30, 60, or 100 times what had been planted!" I understand that I have become a seed planted in the thorns. I have done nothing to spread the word of God and have let myself become a thorn instead, spreading bitterness like the rest of the world. I hope that by realizing this I will be able to capture my faith again and hold it fast. Then I can become a seed that lead 30, 60 or even 100 more people to God than just the seed that was planted.
Thanks for reading through all of that, I hope that I can at least help those who read this to have a closer relationship with God.
P.S Eternity is a long time to spend by yourself.

?!?!

You know those days when it feels like your mood is all over the map, like you just don't know why you're so cranky, or happy, because there is no foundation for it? Well since I started school it seems to be like that everyday! Everyday I get on the bus and I'm cranky, and I only get more cranky with the bus ride. But when I get to school I don't snap at anyone, my mood just goes down. And by the end of the day, even though I'm really tired and my brain has shut down, I'm always super-happy when I get home? What's up with that? It's all very confusing. This morning I've got a chilly stone in my stomach like I'm nervous, but for what?!? Is it possible this is all just teenage stuff and with all the stress of starting school and bunch of crazy teenage hormones got dropped on me? Gosh, I hope not, I hope the rest of high school isn't like this.

A Feast To Behold

So yesterday my Mom and I spent the entire day cleaning the house. We didn't EVER turn on the TV. We were cleaning because my mother had invited my boyfriend's family over to a barbecue. I thought it would cool to make it kinda fancy so I cooked up one of my "magazine recipes" and wore a skirt. It was a blast. After I had stuff my stomach and my cheeks to capacity I popped in Sweeney Todd (which I had never seen before). Wow. It's quite the movie. It's so cherry pie filling and red goo, it's hilarious!! Then my brother and I argued over the special features on whether Tim Burton looked more like Nicholas Cage or Steve Carell. Totally Nicholas Cage, by the way. Great night!

Mosquitos Are Awful

What exactly is the point of a mosquito? They don't do anything but turn into little greedy vampires and fill bites in your skin with an itchy poison, and then they drink your blood! Mosquitos spread disease and infection! West Nile! Malaria! And if you are so stupidly audacious as to even think about going outside when it is less than 100 degrees, you will get eaten alive!
My sister loves to run and wanted so badly to run 13 miles because she had opted out on running a half marathon race and was regretting it. So she goes running and I go biking at 7:30 in the morning and apparently the mosquitoes needed to let us know that Little Haney Rd. is THEIR territory and no one shall dare trespass on it!!
When I do get mosquito bites I am famous for scratching at them so much that I destroy the skin on my ankles and feet. It's awful. The only thing that works is Aveeno anti-itch gel spray. WHICH IS GONE!!!! So I am in agony and want to take a trip to Walmart and never leave the house again. Only to go to the car...and the clothesline...and...maybe the barn. But nowhere else!!!
Got it!! Okay so that would be a little impossible for me, but let's make it clear that mosquitoes are the most worthless living breathing things on the planet!! So when you hear a buzzing in your ear make sure that the mosquito that made it is dead. I, personally will be killing all the mosquitoes I can get my hands on.

Why I Will Never Be A Farmer

I love cows. Cows are pretty much my favorite animal, they're great pets, and extremely lovable. BUT I hate birthing. It's pretty much the most disgusting part of living on a farm. Today, I just happened to be the only other person in the barn to help my dad when this cow was supposed to calve. Now, this wasn't a cute little hair covered calf, this calf was deformed. Of course it was dead and if it had been alive when we pulled it, it wouldn't have lived for long. It had no hair, no muscled, no lips (cows have lips), and it's hooves were not like any other hooves I have ever seen. So, pretty much a sucky morning. I hope the day only gets better.
Just to make sure, I might just call up Miss Sydney Wilkins!!! Maybe we can go see "Eat Pray Love"!! But it would probably have to be with my mother and my sister. Anyway, ya'll have a nice day now! See ya!

Just LIke A Big Girl

So you know I mentioned that the farm I live on was teetering on the edge of remaining a farm? Well, today Helen, Merriam, Mary, Brent, Dad, and I all went up to La Crosse and saw a big ol' fancy lawyer about "the partnership". That's my dad, my aunt and my uncle. Anyway, I sat there and tried really hard not to let my eyes glaze over and actually understand what I was hearing for TWO HOURS!!! It was hard. BUT I actually did understand it enough to ask a perfectly reasonable question that no one else thought of! Other than that I kept my mouth shut and took amazing notes. (which if any of my family members are reading I would be happy to type up and email them) I even dressed like a big girl! In my shnazzy new dark wash jeans!! From what I gleaned from the conversation, the farm is in no danger of being taken by the government IF one of the partnership members lands in a nursing home. And it should fairly easy for my father to leave his 1/3 of the farm to his children (I and my siblings). YAY! Huge weight off everyone's shoulder's. Now we are all going to go to the movies for a celebration. See ya later!

After two years of giving up on trying to bring Brown Swiss to the county fair I have finally done it!! Last Thursday I brought my two heifers Eva and Molly to the Crawford County Fair and on Friday I showed them. Eva got a blue and Molly got a red. But I think Molly totally deserved a blue. Anyway, this is a picture of me and Eva with Molly in the background. The Fair was really great, but really hot. I can't wait for next years!

Gold Award

So lately I have been trying to get started on my girl scout gold award. This is the highest award a girl scout can earn. So it is supposedly a great honor, but I'm not too excited. It's going to be a lot of work. And it's going to be the kind of work that you don't want an award for in the end. I suppose by now you're all wondering what project I have chosen to do. I will be improving (I hope) my church's garden that gives whatever it grows to the food pantry. Right now there are not a whole lot of people to take care of it so I will put up a sign-up sheet for the wonderful people in my church to help me out. I also have plans for the garden to expand and to sell the produce from the that section at the farmer's market. Because my church is always growing (people wise) and we need to expand. Now I don't know about you but when I go to build something I usually need supplies and for supplies I need MONEY. So I plan to get my gold award, give to the food pantry, and raise money for my church all in one swoop. I'm writing this all down because I may have ambition now, but I one or two months, say, I will want to drop it all soooo badly. Maybe this will hold me to it.

I am going to Rock this blog!!

So here I am. Ready to take over this blog from my too busy mother. Providing that I don't become too busy myself (which I probably will) I will try to be a good blogger and improve the vast internet out there. SO! Get ready for SherBear's blog!!!!